Give Grace

My brother, Larry, lost his valiant 2-month battle with cancer early this morning. I was fortunate enough to be there when he passed. Hearing his wife visually walk him “home” to heaven where other friends and relatives eagerly awaited his arrival and seeing how that led him to his peaceful final breath was something I will never forget. I feel very privileged to have witnessed the moments I have in the past 24 hours.

My brother was a good man. Most importantly, he was the most amazing father and helped to raise 3 incredible kids. My heart aches in ways I didn’t know possible seeing his kids try to grasp the reality of this loss. There will be a void there that can never be replaced. As a mom, we want to shelter our kids from hurt. Knowing that there is nothing any of us can do to take this hurt away is almost unbearable.

Larry was out of the house by the time I was born, so needless to say we had a different relationship. It wasn’t a typical brother / sister relationship I guess, but honestly… I don’t know what is typical anymore. Yes, I reached out more in the past two months to Larry than I ever have before. I imagine he would have done the same thing had the tables been turned. When you are faced with a loved one dying, I can only think that is the natural thing to do.

You might expect my message to everyone out there is to hold on tight, give more and don’t let time get between you and a loved one… and although I think that is extremely important, I have an even bigger message I want to share.

Plain and simple, give grace. Give grace and accept each other for what you are. I know in the end my brother and I were accepting and at peace with our relationship. No, it wasn’t a perfect relationship. We have faults, we’ve both made plenty of mistakes over the years however as my friend Wendy so eloquently put in a recent blog post:

“And I pondered how life isn’t perfect. How I’m not perfect. How those I love aren’t perfect. But how loving them…fully loving them warts and all…is somehow perfect, especially when faced with the possibility of not having them.”

As you are contemplating your own relationships… your own life with your friends and family, please take a moment to forgive and give a stretch of grace to those who haven’t lived up to your expectations. In our heart of hearts I know that we are all simply doing the very best we can.

I have a greater appreciation for my brothers and sisters, my parents and the rest of my family because of going through this. We’ve opened up and had conversations with each other that very well might not have happened otherwise. We’ve loved, laughed, cried and most importantly, we have forgiven. I hope you will reach out to the ones you love and do the same.

I am touched and humbled by the outpouring of love from all of you. It has lifted me up in a time full of sorrow. I can’t begin to express my gratitude in a way that will convey how much it has meant to me. Thank you…I feel so blessed.

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Comments

  1. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss, sending you and your family positive thoughts and you’re so right about giving grace, definitely something to think about and try and do. Wishing you all the best during this difficult time.

  2. says

    Kristen, I am very sorry to hear that your brother has passed away. Your post is both honest and heartfelt. Isn’t it amazing that some of the saddest moments in life can show us how to fully embrace our lives? Bless you and yours :-)

  3. says

    Since I read your words yesterday morning I have been thinking about you. Love and appreciate your words here, your honesty means a lot. Paul and I will continue to lift you up in prayer, and your family. Love you, friend!

  4. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My dad died a couple of years ago. We didn’t have the strongest of relationships, especially when I was a kid. It was better toward the end of his life. But sometimes in mourning him I would feel bad…as if maybe I didn’t deserve to mourn him as much because we didn’t have that life-long close relationship. I think I’ve discovered through this process that like your friend Wendy states, no one is perfect. No relationship is perfect. The best we can do is to find the good in whatever way we can. Your post brought all that back for me. A reminder to live in the moment and appreciate what I have – the beautiful imperfectness of it all!

    Please know my thoughts are with you and your family…

  5. Shanxi says

    Praying for you and your family, Kristen. This hits so close to home, and I really appreciate your courage in sharing your thoughts with us during this time. Lots of love and prayers …

  6. says

    Kristen, I am sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing the great message of Grace. Though it’s something I think many people believe in, few of us choose it when the opportunity really presents itself. I needed to hear this today – so thank you for that! And on behalf of your children who might not realize it well enough to thank you now, I thank you – for modeling to them what LOVE is really all about :)

  7. says

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Kristen. Thinking of your brother’s family. Your words ring so true. Thank you for your words of wisdom even in at a time of loss. Sending you hugs from afar.

  8. says

    Kristen, I’m so very sorry for your loss. Please know that your words profoundly touched me. I haven’t talked to my own brother in weeks because I’ve been so busy. I’ll call him today and tell him I love him. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’ll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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